I want no one around me. My kids and husband are fine but that's it. I don't want anyone else near me. I hate spending time with family because they annoy me. I have no friends because I don't trust people enough to have any (don't know how I got a husband). I am so sick of hearing about everyone else's probably 50 times over again.. I've heard the shit once you don't need to repeat yourself fifty more times.

I hate when people see me they're always asking for money. Asking for shit. Complaining about how they ain't got enough money for food. So I'm always shelling out money for every one of my friends to eat on my dime. So I cut all my friends out of my life. Now my siblings always want me to watch their kids but never lets me have a break so now I have nothing to do with them. Now my mom who when I was a kid would dump me off on anyone who'd take me now that I'm 27 been on my own for 10 years have two kids of my own is trying to be a mom. She's trying to say I have an addiction to weed because I smoke 5 hitters through the day to keep me from freaking the fuck out on her. But she can drink her vodka went through 6 huge bottles in less than a week. She's the only one drinking them and I'm the one with a fucking problem. I don't like people because I always end up finding the toxic ones.

I have been very stressed lately. We got a dog he's ok I like him but he doesn't like me. He chews on my shoes he's scratched my daughters face nips at my son while playing he's just a puppy though he poops and pees inside now he is trying to over power people go get their food and he won't listen when I try pushing him off the couch he bit me because I wasn't going to let him snatch food out of my kids hands. I just had surgery and my mom has been chatting my fucking ear off for the whole week she's been hear about how her life is fucked up but plans on doing nothing about it. God am I wrong please tell me if I need to change because the way I feel it's like I'm pushing everyone away from me.