I’m not ready for this 9 month deployment every day it gets closer to the time he needs to leave and every single day i remember and my mood goes down and I get tears that feel like they will never stop i keep telling myself I got this but I don’t I’m afraid, anxious, depressed, worry ect.. i don’t know how I’m going to do this I don’t know how I’m going to build up the courage to get up every morning without him I don’t know how most of you do this I applaud you all for being so brave and strong every single time they deployed.