I’m pregnant😮😮😮!

Ok so I tried to type this before and my phone died 🤨!

So I screen shotted what I could bellow but I’ll write the rest over 🤓

So!!!!

I have a new partner, we’ve litterally been seeing eachother since November 2019 🆕🆕🆕🆕🆕

So like 4 months 🤭👀...

😭 I went to the clinic a couple weeks back For my general checks since we’d started sleeping together without condoms ALTHOUGH I had contraception. I was completely in shock to find out for 1 of these months 💁🏽‍♀️ I’d been pregnant 🤰🏽🤰🏽🤰🏽!

I’m about 7 weeks currently with an upcoming scan this Friday for my lil baba’s heart beat ❤️ (already!)

If I’m honest I am getting a little up and down in my feelings towards this situation 🤨 because GURLLLLLLLL... ☕️

I told my dad last week that I was having a baby and some details about my new partner and to be very honest 🤷🏽‍♀️ he dealt with the news decently at first 👀 then BOOM two days later he has a breakdown!😐😐

He’s concerned about my current relationship with my partner 🤔 and he doesn’t even know the half!

Soooo... 🥴

I’m currently 18, 😬 (sooo wanted a child at 27)

Turning 19 on April 1st 2020.

My Dad... 37😶

My Mom... 34 😮

My Partner... 32😵

Yeah😅...YEAHHHHHH

So 😬 that’s one thing but I already kinda just told my dad that he’s 10 years older than me and he didn’t really react much.

I’ve never been with someone so much older than me neither have I been with someone that

HAS KIDS ALREADY🥴.

And don’t judge me 💀🤷🏽‍♀️

I litterally had no clue until after we 👉🏽👌🏽

Prior to this we’d go on dates, spend a decent amount of time together and for some reason I did not think to ask his age at the time.

I also assumed that he did not have children.

All of a sudden boom tea gets spilled 🤭

A guy I used to speak to blurred out that my partner had kids and I was a little confused at first.

I just accepted this fact and moved on, as i really like this guy.

Personally, I would have preferred to have my first child with someone who was having their first with me also. 🤰🏽 but I WAS NOT THINKING ABOUT A BABY AT THAT TIME!

He has 2 children and one step child for his FIRST BABY MOM,

Yes child his first,

Because the second one I had NO CLUE ABOUT UNTIL I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT!

He literally had just brought another child into this world last week 🌸❤️.

But it was through a friends with benefits type of situation.

The previous partner he was with was with him for 10 years.

I feel as if all of these things just keep getting dropped on me and I’m starting to really get concerned about my situation.

I see my pregnancy as a blessing regardless of the situation and I am willing to do whatever I can for my child!

READ THE SCREENSHOT BELLOW 🥰

🌸 edit: btwww the issue isn’t with my partner he is very honest and open, it’s just unfortunate that somethings came out without him getting the chance to disclose it first (like the first month).

He also looks after his children that he has already WITHOUT FAIL. And priorities them over anyone WITHOUT FAIL.

He also looks well after myself...

The issue I have is definitely anxiety about how this is a situation that definitely isn’t my ideal one. 🤷🏽‍♀️

I’m starting to realise that I’m going through the motions of this pregnancy differently to him and my family are just obviously looking at the picture instead of knowing anything more into it.

I’m also coming to the realisation that my baby cannot be a priority to him as much as they will be to me because he does have to be the career of a new beautiful child with Special needs along side the ones he already has to look after. 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️

Just not ideal but my concern is not about him 🌸