I have extreme anxiety when it comes to crossing physical boundaries in relationships. I long for a deep and real relationship. I have had past relationships with boys where I'm hesitant to want to kiss them and when I have I havent felt anything. I mean I almost had sex with a guy and he was all hot and heavy and our shirts came off and I felt nothing... it was quite awkward, and I stopped things. Anyways, I also have crushes on girls. But I've grown up in a homophobic household so I'm just starting to explore that part of me and dont have any experience kissing girls or anything more than that. I'm wondering... does this make me lesbian, bisexual, demisexual, or asexual? Because if I feel nothing (arousal) for guys ive dated, is it just anxiety, not the "right" person, am I gay or am I actually just asexual? Because I watch porn and masturbate just fine so I'm hella confused. PLZ HELP. P.s. I am a cis female pronouns she/her