So last week i found out im pregnant! Very excited and happy...i wanted my kids to have another sibling. Im an only child and always wants my kids to have siblings. Anyways...im due October 10ish and thats what im freaking out about. My daughter father death anniversary is around that date of his suicide and every year around that time time my mental health is shot and im basically a goner. Im there but not really. I have really bad aniexty and PTSD from his passing and now im due around that time. Im so nervous and worried about the post partum. Will i be good enough for my 2 kids i already have and now this one on the way?!

At the same time i feel like this is a blessing sent at this time because its been a few years since hes left us. A sign? Idk i over think too much.