Why do I do this to myself 😅

We’ve only been trying for 2 cycles so far so I know I’m about to sound really selfish so to anyone I may offend, I’m so sorry in advance!

This is so depressing! I just want baby #2 so bad! I want to see my little girl become a big sister. I want to see my fiancé with our newborn again. I want to tell my family (who is all patiently waiting) that we’re finally having another baby. My daughter is 3, I don’t want a huge age gap between them. I feel so selfish because I see so many other women who have been trying for so much longer than I am and a lot of them have been diagnosed with fertility issues and it breaks my heart and makes me feel worse! I’m just feeling really down about it all I guess. Why is it so much harder this time 🥺 AF is later as usual cause I’m irregular but of course I’m still getting BLARING negatives and honestly I’m just getting more tired of it every time I take one. 🙄 someone tell me that it gets less frustrating or that there’s so trick to not obsessing over it all of the time!