Night 1 of the Ferber Method. I started crying at the 6 minute interval. Didn't make it past the 7 minute interval. Picked him up and rocked him to sleep. I know I shouldn't have, but I was coming unglued and he was choking from crying so hard. It was horrible. Will try again tomorrow but for now I'm just glad he's asleep.

I'm just posting because I hate everything about this. I feel guilty because I feel like I've created a situation where he wants to be held and rocked to sleep, so now it's worse on him. I hate letting him cry and "self soothe" (which he doesn't do) but I know he needs to learn. It feels so unnatural to just let your baby lay there screaming and crying. I hate it. He used to go to sleep on his own most of the time, while drowsy but still awake. Now that he has a clear understanding of object permanence, those days are over.

Here's hoping tomorrow is better.