feeling all the emotions ... š£
so tonight my husband got home from work and we laid down to watch a movie.. all of the sudden his phone goes off with a notification and he asks me to check it, so I did.. it was just a bank notification. Then I scrolled to the main page to look at a video of our last appointment with baby boys heart beat when all of a sudden I see 2 suspicious apps under his āutilitiesā folder.. I clicked on it and it happened to be 2 chat apps (red flagš©) why are they under utilities?!! At this point heās looking kind of nervous and I still didnāt think much of it. I asked him what the apps were and he tells me theyāre apps to share memes with people..š¤ so I said okay, then I clicked on the first app and the first conversation that catches my eye is one that reads āhey, whatās up?ā (profile picture was a girl) he had sent this message and gotten no reply.. so then I started scrolling up to look at older conversations and I see what inevitably broke me ... heās SEXTING her!!!!! heās asking to see pictures of her boobs, asking her if sheās a virgin, telling her he has boners... WTF!!!! I broke down.... he then begins to cry and apologize and the first thing he says is āif you think Iām cheating on you, Iām not ... I promiseā ...... UMMMM idk about you guys but sexting is cheating to me š¤·š»āāļø he says heās going to do all he can to get back my trust and blah blah blah ....... heās apparently never met this girl, only through the app. Am I crazy?? Overreacting?? I just feel so betrayed... like Iām not enough. Weāre expecting our first baby.. got married back in April of 2019. Why is he doing this now??!! Iāve been feeling like heās been sort of distant since we found out about baby. He never brings up conversations about being excited for the baby, never asks me how Iām feeling. If I donāt start a conversation about the baby, he NEVER does.. we would literally never talk about our son if I wasnāt the one to bring him up.... and then this. As if I needed more stress added to my life right now š£ I am so hurt. I feel broken, betrayed, not good enough... I just donāt even know if I still want to be with him at this point š
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