Idk what’s going on with my bf but he doesn’t seem interested in having any actual conversation about shit I’m going through in my life. We live together and have been together for 4 months (yes we moved too fast but I fell ill for about a month and couldn’t work and he took care of me) and he’s trying to give me a promise ring. I don’t wanna accept it before I can accept our relationship and like this I can’t... I feel alone. I think he’s in love with the idea of a girlfriend but not me.

I’ve voiced these concerns and said all of this to him multiple times and he says he loves me and he wants to make it better but it’s been months. As soon as I finally open up to him then he makes me feel like the bad guy. Telling me how I’ve been acting is making him cry he’s so worried about us after I get mad at him for not like trying to make conversation with me. He tickles me and I tell him to stop or that he’s being too rough and he doesn’t, he’s constantly in my face kissing me and putting his hands on me or going underneath my clothes but then like he makes the smallest effort to help or to talk to me and he’ll wait till he’s good and ready to do so. He says “he does what he wants” all the time and he’s pretty much gotten away with murder his whole life. He used to be my best friend and my biggest supporter and like now he like doesn’t care about me personally at all. He’ll talk about himself and his day till he’s blue in the face and I’ll talk to him about something and he stares off into space and doesn’t say shit and then will look right at me and walk past me. As soon as he came home last night he sparks up a blunt and says “this is the last thing I wanna remember of the evening” he talked about work, turned on his trap rap music videos while we did a puzzle “together” and I didn’t talk. Not once. We went to bed. Ive told him before if he doesn’t wanna be with me he doesn’t have to be. But he could tell I was upset and acted like a total dick still the entire evening. He reassures me he loves me but doesn’t really go any deeper with his feelings about it. Idk how it got to the point where now I have to ask random people I don’t know how to respond to my boyfriend’s behavior when a couple months ago we were so unbelievably in love with each other that we were living together before we ever moved in together. That’s why we went ahead and did, it took about 2 weeks of knowing each other before we were attached at the hip and it was like that for 2 months before he moved in here completely with me.