Gender blues

I don’t know if my emotions are partly to blame, and I feel awful saying this.. me and my fiancé have wanted a baby girl for so long and I know that overall all I want is my baby to be HEALTHY! But I feel like if I find out that I’m having a boy I will be super sad.. i still have a while until we find out the gender anyways. I just want to be clear that The love for this baby will not be any different regardless of the gender. But I will be so much more excited knowing that I’ll be having a daughter :( how do I get over this