Amateur BDSM

Hey guys!

So, my boyfriend always had this fantasy of practicing bondage, and some bdsm stuff. So, for Valentine's day, I surprised him with some handcuffs, a leather wip, and even a vibrator.

He was so excited, he came like never before, and in record time (usually he takes a long time to finish).

The thing is that I was enjoying it so much, until, he started humiliating me.

Basically he tied me up in a corner and left me there waiting, and other stuff.

The point is, I went through a traumatic event, that consisted on that type of sexual humiliation.

I'm kind of confused, cause somedays I get so turned on with the punishments he wants to try. But other days, I just cant take it.

Any recomendations?