Okay short story time

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I was talking to this guy not for very long tho .. we’d have sex every now and then ..

But then came a time where he just was obsessed with trying to do anal with me and kept pressing the issue .. I kept saying I’d do it a couple of times but chickened out 😂🤷🏾‍♀️

Then came a time where I talked myself into trying it

So one night he pick me up and we ya know doing it in the car ..

So he hitting it so good he tell me to turn over ( the anal thing went way over my head at the moment ) so this guy like grabs lotion I turn around to see what he doing and he’s like forcing me back down to we’re I couldn’t see what he was doing and next thing you know this mf tries to ram his dick in my asshole and I just screamed for dear life

And he kept trying but I kept telling him to get off me he did after not succeeding and when he took me home I went to the bathroom my ass was bleeding

No I didn’t report it because I mean i did wanna try and I did give him permission several times to try but didn’t and that night for sure I didn’t give him permission too so I didn’t wanna report anything and it all just backfired on me because I did say yes at one point ..

Now it’s been about a year since it’s happened and my bf wants to try I’ve made it to where he’s gonna stick it in but I just can’t like my body tenses up and I get scared 🥺 like that night literally fucked with my head .