so i’m a senior in high school & my boyfriend is a freshman in college & he’s at fort benning for bct/ait & he won’t be home until july. he left feb 3. that doesn’t seem like that long to other people i’m sure but this is the first time i’ve ever had to be apart from someone i love for this long & im kind of struggling. i’ve been writing him letters, but the problem is that i don’t have his address yet so i can’t send them. he’s sent me 4 so far but none of them have a return address, just his name. so i feel really bad about the fact that he’s there all by himself & he doesn’t have anyone to talk to since he hasn’t received any letters back & it makes me sad. because i know he needs our support & he tells me in his letters how much he misses me every day & i feel so bad that i can’t respond to him. also, today is his 19th birthday & i feel so bad that he won’t receive any letters for his birthday or anything. but i’m kind of struggling with missing him. it sucks because i know that no matter how sad i am or how much i think about him he’s not going to get home any sooner. writing letters to him helps a little bit but knowing that he can’t read them makes it worse. i was just wondering if anyone has any advice for something to do to keep myself from feeling so sad all the time. it’s hard because none of my friends are going through this so they always say i can talk to them but then i tell them that i miss him & they’re just kind of like “aw that sucks” because there isn’t really much else they can say so i feel kind of alone. plus all of my friends have boyfriends & girlfriends & i see everyone at school holding hands & everything & i just get so jealous. like my best friend constantly talks about her boyfriend, “we did this” “we went on a date here” etc & it makes me jealous. i feel guilty because i know i should be happy for her & her relationship but when they tell me things about their relationships or how much they miss their boyfriend/girlfriend that they just saw the day before it makes me feel bad because i want to talk to them & stuff but it’s hard for me not to be like “ok but you still get to talk to them? & see them all the time?? i wish i had that..”

i don’t know i just partially wanted to rant & partially wanted to see if anyone had any advice for how to cope with missing him/how to not feel so alone in this. anything is appreciated.