(Sorry if this is the wrong group)

So I’ve had a rape kink for as long as I could remember. But the thing is, I’m not sure if it’s just something I’m into or because of past traumas. I’ve been sexually assaulted multiple times and and nearly raped. I never enjoyed it when it actually happened and I was terrified. I wasn’t even a teenager when it all happened and it’s something that’ll scar me forever. But is it weird that I have a rape kink now? Shouldn’t I want nothing to do with it? I’m confused is all. I know none of you can tell me what’s going on in my mind, but I’m wondering if anyone else has gone through the same thing.

Edit: I just wanted to say that I’m happy so many of you have commented. I’ve only ever seen it talked about once and I looked it up and couldn’t find anything about it. I definitely think it’s something that needs to be talked about more. But you guys made me realize I’m not so alone in this. It’s something I’ve never told any of my past boyfriends about but now I’ve started exploring it a little over text? I’m still not comfortable with being touched, so it’s somewhat of a start.

So thank you guys for sharing a bit of your stories 💜