Super Scared 😬😬😬

I'm low key panicking.

Yesterday before I got into the shower, I went pee and it felt like I had a cut on my downstairs area. I took my shower and decided to check with a mirror, just to make sure all was good.

When I did that, I saw two almost black spots. One being right where I previously had a freckle and the other one being right next to it. These spots are very new and a pretty good size. The outsides of them aren't perfectly a circle like the freckle was, instead it's wavy.

I looked it up and the only results I got were melanoma. When I compared pictures online with what I had, they looked extremely similar. My grandpa had melanoma and I believe it's what I've been told killed him.

I have an appointment today at planned parenthood to get checked because all other doctors offices and clinics around me don't have appointments for new patients until a month from now.

Also super scared about having a stranger looking at my lady bits. I'm 19 and haven't ever been to a gynecologist. I also have social anxiety and haven't been able to get a refill on my meds in a while, so I'm stressed the fuck out 🙃🙃🙃 I'm also gonna be embarrassed if I go in all stressed and it turns out to literally be nothing.