I feel alone

With some support of my family I’m unsure about my relationship with it’s my child’s father. He’s not even in the same country and will not be until I’m six months. He’s enjoying life right now , sleep in all day and out all night. But I’m left to juggle work , school , and being pregnant. And he has insecurities that I could be doing something before I’m showing which is not making me enjoy my pregnancy at least with him. He says that he’s there but he’s actions are different , I just feel as though ima alone now and will be alone once my baby comes . He makes it so hard to be vulnerable when I have to remain strong just to function. Men just have it so easy ,they don’t have to worry about that stuff and I think I’m slowly getting depressed about it.