i have a really bad relationship with my parents(they’re divorced) and they were emotionally abusive to me in my childhood

and now i’m 20 and i’m still working my ass off trying to make them proud of me even though they never will be

i used to self harm from 8th-12th grade but i haven’t done that in over two years

even after i stopped self harming i often would hit myself when i was crying just to feel pain, but recently i stopped doing that too... it’s hard... so hard because all i want to do when i cry is hit myself but i won’t let myself do it, i haven’t hit myself in over six months, i honestly never thought i would stop

i just need someone to be proud of me for how far i’ve come