Coping with chemical and anxiety...pls help..

So I've been suffering from clinical anxiety and vaginismus (an involuntary contraction of vaginal muscle causing penetrative sex painful and impossible) for as long as i can remember.

Got married six months ago, and after so many trials, disappointments, stress, and tears, i got cured of it just last month. I was ecstatic that I finally got it cured (my hubby was a great support during those dark times and I'm very thankful to have him by my side) , and was taking things slow (ie wasn't planning on pregnancy yet).

But earlier this month i started having classic pregnancy/period symptoms even though it wasn't my period yet. Sore breasts, nausea, vomiting, frequent urination etc.

My urine test was Bfn two days after period date. So my doctor said wait a week and test again as probably hcg level wasnt high yet. Tomorrow was supposed to be a week.

Yesterday early morning i woke up with excruciating pain in my hips and legs. And found out i was bleeding. Deep down i knew something was wrong, and drove myself to the clinic (hubby was at work and i couldn't wait till he was back).

Doctor confirmed it was chemical at probably 3-4 weeks. 😭😭😭.

Disappointed for the loss but when I'm back up, we're gonna start TTC.

Can someone tell me how did you cope with the loss? My anxiety isn't helping me get a rational hold of all that's happened.

Thanks.