Here we go again


Another. Negative. A&@. Test.


I am so freaking sick of seeing this one single line. 18 days late. And it’s because of my PCOS. Never because of a pregnancy. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t even test when I am supposed to and I just wait... wait... and wait for Flo to show up, then I finally crack and there it is... in my face... taunting me. Jesus Christ how can 1 line control so much in my life? Make me hate myself so much?

Unexplained fertility. It’s straight bs.

I just want for once in my life again that I would see a double line.

5 years of this crap. And I think back to all the times after having my 8 year old that I would be so relieved when the test was negative. Now look at me...