I feel horrible that I’m not happy or excited about this baby. This will be baby #2, and I just found out my husband has cheated on me AGAIN. For the first baby he confessed to going to a prostitute to get a bj (he said was 5 years ago), turns out he did it while I was pregnant. 😔 I suffered so much last year going through that but I pushed through for our son and I wanted my baby to have both parents. So I tried forgiving him.

My husband has a sex addiction. Started with porn, and he had been getting help. Well I found some porn on his phone earlier this year and was devastated to see he had broke his “porn free streak” (total lie). More lies came out with the help of God and he confessed to going to nude strip clubs getting lap dances, and massage parlors getting hand jobs (and God only knows what else). My world is completely upside down. And just last week I found out I’m pregnant with #2, but I don’t want this baby. I hate feeling that way that I don’t want it. But I don’t believe in abortion. I’m so depressed, I never thought I’d be in this situation. But I have decided I don’t want to be with my husband anymore. Enough is enough. Even if I’m alone.