Today is the first day of a long overdue break up. Im hurting inside. I'm sitting here watching the office trying to laugh my troubles away but it doesn't help. I feel like im drowning. I love him so much but the relationship was not healthy for me. I cant handle arguing everyday, being accused of cheating, feeling taken for granted, feeling lonely, feeling unappreciated, and just completely not loved. I've dealt with this emptiness for almost two years and its not good. He has took me through so much in this relationship, i should have left a long time ago. I've been cheated on, disrespected, taken advantage of, and just flat out embarrassed but i stayed because i love him and its sad to say that i still do. I've locked myself inside my room and i just don't have any will power to do anything. I just want to be left alone but yet be comforted 😔😔😔 today sucks