I feel like lately I've been really down. We were trying for this baby and I am so excited to meet him, but right now I'm over pregnancy (which makes me feel bad for even feeling this way).

I had a lot of mood swings in the first trimester, and they seemed to go away for awhile. Now they're back and full force! In the past few weeks (I am almost 23 weeks) I have "popped" and I show more than my sister in law who is 34 weeks. I was always thin before this and actually struggled to gain weight until last year when I finally was able to get to a healthy weight for my height and maintain it (I'm 5'9"). Even with all of that weight struggles over the years, I was able to have a healthy body outlook and keep my focus on getting healthy and not comparing myself to other women. LONG story short, it is hard to not recognize my body anymore. Maybe it's because the change has happened so fast or because people keep pointing it out? My hips and back (which I also have had issues with my whole life) during this "OMG you popped!" period have been killing me. I start PT tomorrow, so hopefully that will help!

Lastly, sex has been so difficult. My drive used to be through the roof, but I guess I just don't feel good right now. My husband is amazing, it's not him at all, but recently I haven't been able to get there. That definitely adds to the general bummer that is my state of mind right now.

I know I am so so lucky to be able to carry this healthy child, and I know that I have had it easier than a lot of women. This FTM just needs some advice y'all. I also just want to check in with you ladies - how are you doing??