Hi beautiful ladies ,

I’m writing today because I feel alone defeated depressed .to make it short :all negative feelings women can feel . All my family are so so far.i interact with them via phone which is not enough for me to feel the warm or the moral support . my husband doesn’t understand my feelings that maybe I won’t never be a mom and how it makes me freak out .i can’t focus on my studies .he’s enjoying time at work with his collègues .when he’s back home I expect a special attention from him other than words :I love you : to be honest I don’t even believe his words anymore .i want to find the funny girl I was but this bad feeling is taking over me . I think because of my age (44) knowing that I’m running out of time .im writing from my college I had an exam I didn’t do well couldn’t focus on questions. I’m really sad