So overwhelmed...

I guess I just need to vent somewhere...

Well I usually work and always worked but before my pregnancy I had to go on medical leave because something fell on my hand at work and I need surgery to fix the issues it’s not broken it just my ulnar bone moved to forward so I need to have it down.... I always am in pain but I learned how to manage it since my surprise pregnancy and here I am on medical leave because I already exhausted my light duty work... so for a couple of months I been off of work and patiently waiting on my surprise angel to come...

But now I been feeling so overwhelmed I posted a couple of months ago of my sister in law taking advantage of me and having me watching her children and I did but I recently stopped because I can’t bend and my hand been hurting more and more because I can’t hold so much weight on my hand... she’s been treating sorta rude but my husband still bends over backwards for them but when it comes to thing I need help like the house cleaning washing clothes I don’t get any help what so ever... and it’s honestly getting to my and hurting the way I see him now and days... I cried telling him we don’t date there’s no romance you don’t help me and I wrote a letter to him couple of weeks ago and it still has not changed... I just want to feel wanted and feel like a woman again not a mom house wife just someone who will do anything and everything for him and his family... I have 2 kids of my own and I always do sports school and make sure my kids are taken care of as well.. but I just feel like taken advantage of completely he’s a good man but he’s lazy in our relationship and it’s killing the way I see him now and days..