Feel so alone what’s your experience😪

Im 19 trying to conceive my rainbow bub.. it seems so impossible.. when I was trying to conceive 2 of my friends fell pregnant and had healthy pregnancys an like 2 months after my loss one of my best friends fell pregnant.. then on the anniversary of my loss my other best friend fell pregnant and honestly my heart hurts so much... 😭 I have my own house, a license... I’ve been with my partner for 2 years, 7 months. These friends have none of that (not judging) but I feel I’m doing things the right way and I get nothing... I just want to be a mumma soo much .... I’ve tried everything down to diet, meditation, supplements, sex positions, fertility lubes... I’ve taken sugary foods out of my diet.. done light exercise 2-3 x a week like walking. It’s killing me.. I can’t talk to anyone about it no more.I’m so lost. 💔💔💔