You ever just lay down at night ( can’t sleep ) and remember old memories from your teen days/early 20s about ex friend/partners/scary events and just have these random flashbacks and then you snap out of it and look around you at your current situation and think wow i feel so happy/blessed , I was remembering toxic ex boyfriends from my high school pre 20 days , feeling so lonely and using toxic coping mechanisms like drinking every day to numb so much pain, and now laying next to my loving future husband , 10 years sober, therapy and taking awesome yoga classes and I’m feeling so happy and thankful of my home and family and my present well being, I’m not perfect but I feel I found so much peace rn and I can finally breath, I’m trying to cry quietly from happiness so I won’t wake my boo up 🥺 😩😭😂❤️