I'm 5 weeks pregnant today and for the last few days I just haven't been excited about this pregnancy but I feel so guilty because I've always wanted to be a mum but now it's actually happening I feel overwhelmed with what's to come. I think it's because my sister is struggling with her 19 month old son and can't afford much either and I'm scared I'll be the same. I feel so guilty for feeling this way. Maybe it's my hormones making me feel like this and I'm always crying over it or maybe it's because this pregnancy doesn't feel real yet. I'm hoping after my scan it'll help me be excited.