I feel like a failure!

We’ve been trying for #2 and doing everything we can. Was hoping for a positive test today because my period is supposed to start tommorow, and its negative pure usual. Yes I know I am lucky to have my son but I would like to complete my family. We do ovulation tests and all that too. It just almost makes me mad seeing all these other BFP and announcements and everyone happy. Like yes I am happy for you but I want that too 😭