This happened in early January but I haven't posted about it. I was wondering if anyone has gone through the same/something similar.

I got pregnant late November and told my grandparents in late December (they were the only ones besides my mom and closest family members that I told.) A few days later on January 2nd, I went to a New Year's party at my cousin's house. Everyone was acting weird and staring at me. As I left, my cousin (J) hugged me and whispered "everything will be okay." I figured she had found out because when I came into the house my great grandma patted my belly and she saw. I didn't really appreciate her saying it'll be okay when she hadn't said anything to me during the party.

So I got back in the car with my other cousins (I live with my cousin and her parents had driven us to the party.) and they told me my great grandma had told everyone before I got there. And no one had the decency to at least tell me. (I don't blame my grandma, she was just really excited and didn't mean harm. She also probably didn't expect what would happen next.)

Well J is a known gossip. She has a boring screwed up life so she spends her time talking shit about others so I knew I had to get ahead of it. There was a specific person I wanted to tell in person more than others, so I tried to arrange to meet up with her at the church we used to go to together. That plan fell through so I told her over text, and she said she had already found out. At that point I knew what had happened.

Met up with her a few weeks later and she showed me messages that J had sent telling her I was pregnant and talking shit about the fact that I had only been at my job for 2 months (2 months TOPS, in her words) before quitting and basically calling me a bum. Soon after I found out more and more of my family knew. So basically, aside from a few people I didn't get to tell ANY of my family. And the people I didnt tell in person don't bring it up because they feel uncomfortable that they know but think I don't know. I'm going to make an announcement in a few days after I find out the gender so at least I'll have that. But J robbed me of something she can never give back. I will never get to see those reactions. Even if I have another baby it won't be the same, because this is my first and to a lot of people I am the baby of the family. This will also be my great grandmother's first great great grandchild. Has anyone gone through this? I've already confronted her and she knows she messed up but I still don't feel satisfied, because she will never pay for her actions. I can keep my child from her but I know eventually I won't be able to keep that up just because of how my family is. And it's hard for me to put my foot down when someone is confronting me acting all guilty. She saw me at a funeral a few weeks ago and was literally sobbing apologizing to me and I awkwardly forgave her because I didn't know what to do. I feel like she knew I would have no choice (or at least feel like I didn't) since we were at a funeral of a family member.

Anyway. Advice? Stories? Wisdom? Anything? I really need support and comfort because even though it's been a while it still hurts.