I'm scared tbh , I don't have no one to talk to about how I feel ... this all started Feb 20th when I had to take an asvab test for the army , me and my husband had a slip up and 48 hrs I went to take a plan b ... only it didnt work and i found out i was pregnant. Now i put my life on hold to see if my husband would go into the army for me and today he didnt pass the test and now i have to get an abortion Friday. I feel so defeated, i felt like the lord wanted this baby here and now i feel like I'm going against it all , I've always said i would have an abortion but in reality i can't even get an apartment for my 2 kids , i work at amazon and barely make enough for an apartment in nyc . I'm stuck my husband doesn't work and in a shit load of debt and how this ....... why me ? Why did it have to be this way ? I hate myself already for what I'm going to have to put myself , my body and the angel baby through . I'm so scared I'll never go to heaven because of this , I wish that plan b worked I wish I was ovulating and I wish I wasnt a female as of rn . I'm sorry lord im sorry