I always loved most all my in-laws before pregnancy and during. But now that he’s here I can not stand any of them there always in his face and don’t follow hardly any of the simple rules I have like washing hands and precautions after they smoke. I want to feel comfortable with them and happy to be around them like I used to but I’m just not and I think that also has to do with me just not being comfortable about breastfeeding around anyone and I get so nervous when it’s time to feed him when I’m at there house. I’m fine around my own family but not his I don’t know why. And when I’m at his family’s house whoever is holding him I watch them like a freaking hawk but I don’t do that with my family.