I hate my life

Maybe it's just the hunger and tiredness that's talking, but I hate my life. I wanted a child. I wanted to be a mom. A fucking suck at it and I hate my life. I'm so fucking tired of being tired and unable to fucking do anything other than focus on her sleep and her food and her play and her development.

I'm just so fucking done.

I'm done with the lack of sleep, the starving half a day and not having any social life.

I'm done with Corona and people's panic.

Edit: I've spoken with my doctor. Not much help. Waiting lists for therapy is unbelievable.