I found out I was pregnant one month after getting engaged, and a month after that I found out my now husband was scheduled to leave for boot camp in January. January 11th I got married and 2 days later he left for base.....

2 weeks after that I found out he wouldn't graduate until after my due date.

But today, today is when I finally cry. Maybe it's silly to some but to me it hurts. My husband hasn't felt his little girl kick yet, or gotten to see the way she tosses and turns on the monitor. I was supposed to be able to see him at the end of this month and due to the virus it's cancelled.

22 weeks without someone I love and it's these 22 weeks that I always thought I would get to spend with him. Don't get me wrong I understand that its timing and safety but I'm sad and heartbroken. I guess I just wish I wasn't doing this without him.

I just needed a place to vent and express my sadness. Please know I'm very appreciative of my rainbow baby and I understand that some Mama's are struggling to get to this point and often have to do this alone. Like I said I'm just sad.