It’s sad on my behalf

Sometimes I wish I were a cheater 🙁🙁🙁🙁 my bf lacks with giving me attention. i often wonder has he already been cheating on me, i have no evidence to back up my theory. I just have a thought in my the back of my head.

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BUT He’ll ignore me ;we rarely go on date nights anymore. I’ve told him about it but he just try to flip it onto me like there’s nothing wrong.... I’m 1000% loyal to him I do not text anyone chat with anyone or anything. I’m always bored I don’t have any friends, I do have a job it’s only weekdays. So I’m actually a loner when I’m not with him/talking to him I’m so damn bored/into my thoughts............. when i say cheater I’m meaning could actually text other men, not actually be with them sexually.... just converse!

Maybe I’m an actually jerk for even thinking of any of this. Let along typing it up expressing it. I just wanted to vent a little. 😭😭😭😭😖😖😖

edit; it’s not his fault I don’t have any friends. The friends that i did have I learned they were snakes. So I just keep my distance. &nd haven’t really cared to make new friends.