First Heartbreak

hey ladies, i need some advice or words of wisdom to heal my heart. so basically i was in a long distance relationship for about a year and a half. things were great but we did our ups and downs. i guess for him it came to a point where the bad outweighs the good and he just couldn’t handle it anymore. he was always honest but at the breakup he brought up things that he felt that i didn’t know he was feeling. as much as i think we could have hashed it out and worked it through, it really hurts that someone can just up and leave like that. in the beginning he was the one so down for the relationship and wanting to make it last and when things got hard he doesn’t want it anymore. when he broke it off he said we could remain friends, but the funny thing is that when i reach out a month later he never replied. i do feel kind of played because we always take guys for their word but clearly they don’t give a fuck. this was my first ever relationship and i emotionally invested a lot time, money and most of all effort to make it work. it really just hurts to see how easy it was for him to give me the cold shoulder so instantly. as of now it’s been a bit over 3 months since he ended the relationship and no contact since last month. a part of me wants to just block him and another part of me wants to keep him. ladies, i don’t know what to do, i feel so hurt and deceived even though he told me straight up before breaking it off, i guess i took him for his word. btw we only have each other on one social media platform (snapchat) so it doesn’t really make a big difference and neither of us have removed each other. i don’t wanna look stupid for removing him if things end up turning around but also i don’t wanna let it effect my healing. not to have a ego but you know when you did everything for that person and you know no one else will do that for them because in the modern world we love differently. yeah well... sorry i wrote too much but i’m tired of feeling like i’m missing something when i am not 😔 l appreciate anything girls. i’m 21 btw and with all my friends in relationships makes me feel like i’m behind, but this generation moves differently