I woke up to this cookie after having an argument with the guy I’m dating

he was on a drunken rage and kept calling me weird, retarded, stupid, likened me to a wall poster that’s pretty but has nothing meaningful to say, and even said his nine year old daughter can talk better than me.. then told me I can’t possibly be the one for him....all because I said “uh huh” to a question and he couldn’t hear me. Yep. Then he threw everything down in the room we were in and started saying that he KNOWS he’s the shit because girls at our school (college) want him. Whole time I’m not even saying anything.

This isn’t the first time either, he’s always angry when he’s drunk and says the worst things to me. He even just walked around screaming and hitting things when he was drunk once. I locked myself in the next room. Anything can set him off. On top of this I also found out he’s been talking to other chicks which doesn’t even surprise me. when I went home I just cried myself to sleep. I’m always getting emotionally abused by guys and I just never feel like I’m good enough. top of that I had a really abusive childhood and therapy only slightly helps. I just want to feel valued, you know?

I woke up today to a message from him saying he misses me with a sad emoji 🙄 I didn’t reply. I brushed my teeth and took my last Girl Scout cookie out the package only because i have a sweet tooth and love the new Lemon-Ups lol.

might be cheesy but I really needed to hear/read this. like maybe I’ll be okay w/o him or my family. like I can still continue and make it in school and stuff