I met a guy who was my rebound from my current bf (we got back together after this). Well, the guy and I went on a night drive and he gave me alcohol I’m only 16.. I got a bit drunk and he started kissing me (I told him before that I don’t want anything sexual because I got our of a relationship of 3 years) he got more sexual after a while but it was hard to say no because we were alone in the middle of nowhere and he was tripple my size (not joking). He pushed me against the car window inside his car and pulled down my pants and held my arms to the back that I didn’t have balance anymore. He continued until I screamed and started crying. I tried getting dressed and then suddenly a car pulled up and it was the police. He made me lie to them and they called my mom (he was 20). The police didn’t allow me to get dressed and laughed at me. I couldn’t tell them I got raped.

I told my bf about it and we haven’t been the same since. He blames for it that I could’ve said no but it was not that easy.. I was scared. I understand I hurt him. He was the first person to rape me (in my sleep) even tho I said he should stop. Now that I don’t want to have sex anymore he blames it on the guy who raped me. But tbh it has to do with both of them... I want to fix everything please help