Sorry for the long long journey, but guys I really need to let this out. I have been posting about my TTC Journey and then my pregnancy. It has been such a crazy roller coaster for me. I am going to share everything so that maybe one of you finds something similar but hope.

I got my IUD taken out Jan 14th. I got my period 16-19th. I am not sure it was my period but I bled a good amount. IUD does mess up your cycle, so I was not sure. My husband and I BD every other day until my fertile window according to this app. Fertile window we BD daily. Even before TTC we BD every other day so it was not a problem for us. Anyways. I started feeling a few symptoms like tender breasts, pinching pain on my left side, and VIVID dreams. Thank god, I tested out positive February 11. February 14th I had pain on my left side again which was ver disturbing. I was very afraid of ectopic pregnancy so I went to the clinic to get a transvaginal US (Biggest mistake for going in early). They didn’t see anything. They made me coming’s like every other day for the next two weeks to track my HCG and US. I was very upset to this point. Finally on the 20th, they found the Gest sac in the uterus. I was relieved. They told me to come back in another week to see the yolk sac. And I did. It was there. Told me to come back in another week, to see the fetal heart. I go in and there was none yet. They said come back another week. I went. This week (which was last week) they said that there was no change in the US and no heart beat. They saw a flicker but they said it must be an “artifact” Whatever that means. The doctor took my husband and I to a separate room to talk about aborting. She gave us our options. She said Its not viable. Its better to get it out soon as possible. My husband an I just looked at each other across the table hopeless. We got up and said we will call in for the appointment and see what option we choose. As soon as I walked out, I bursted. I cried my lungs out. We both went home and we slept. I woke up after 4 hours and searched. I look on YouTube and everything. I looked at guidelines. I went through every material. We both came to a conclusion to wait 2 weeks. I felt so pregnant. Nauseas, breast tender, fatigue and all. I had no bleeding to cramps. I felt fine. I had hope. I had a gut feeling that flicker was a flicker and I kept my hope up. I Called her two days later and said we want to wait and get another US in two weeks. Today, I had a deep gut feeling that something is there! I called another clinic and they luckily had a spot for me and I ran there! I signed all the required documents and I am now laying there on the table. She inserts the probe in me and THERE! Is a beautiful flickering heart. This doctor has 50 years experience. She said you were so early. She also said that doctors these days don’t have patience. About 20% of pregnancies are aborted due to lack of knowledge and patience. It’s all timing. I can’t tell you how thankful I am! Please please please wait. If they say to abort, wait at least 2 weeks until you bleed! My husband and I are doctors, and sometimes we hate these guidelines. They are not individualized. According to my LMP im suppose to be almost 9 weeks, but I am 5 weeks and 3 days. WHAT A DIFFERENCE. We never know when we conceived, and that is the most misleading thing. Another misleader, going to your doctors early unless you have pain or bleeding. So please keep your hopes up. PRAY and be optimistic. BLESS YOU ALL