I dont know where else to share this than here so here we go.

I had my first loss in October 2019. At 10 weeks baby stopped growing at 8-9 weeks. That was rough. I cried and cried and I was broken. Took weeks for me to stop crying everyday.

Until I got pregnant again in January 2020. I unfortunately found on Tuesday this week that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks but I was 9 weeks... i had my d&c yesterday. I cried at the hospital. I cried before the d&c... but I don’t feel the same extreme pain and heartbreak that I felt with my first...

maybe I was expecting to loose this one too? Maybe i didn’t let myself get attached to this one?

I dont know. But I feel extremely guilty that I dont have more emotions than this... am I just in shock? Is this how im grieving?

I just want to get this over with and try again...

I would really appreciate if someone can share if they felt this way?