So let me just start off with my dad was very physically and mentally abusive. And I’ve had a hard time talking to guys that have brown hair because I related it back to him, then that turned into me relating mostly any guy who has brown hair to any of my family members as an excuse to not talk to them. Is that like even something or am I seeing something that is normal? Cause my bf is blonde and he is the first person who has pursued me that is blonde. Is that coincidence? I have a lot of childhood trauma, which I don’t remember (anything before I was 10) and I’m really trying to figure out what make me the way I am and how I can change and this is just another thing that I think has affected me.