Sad and sort of jealous
I see all these couples happy on this app and though I know some things are just masks I cant help but think I wish I had that
I deserved that.
I didn't deserve to be cheated on.
Not at all but definitely after all I have given or have done.
I gave up my life for this man just for him to try to replace me.
And though I haven't left him I know nothing will ever be the same
I don't feel anything anymore
I loved him so fucking much
And still I don't want him to leave me
Somehow I still feel like I'm losing
My children's father my life partner myself..
I wont be happy either way.
I never planned for this
I guess they are right, being ready for a relationship is being ready for working and not working out..
And I never imagined this
I trusted him so much.
My lifes been nothing but pain and he knew I had no one else and didn't care
He put our kids in the position to lose their daddy or even their lives
I just don't understand
I will never understand selfishness.