So my bday was Saturday. I honestly thought my bf was going to propose. I thought he was hinting at it. Come Saturday. All I get is a card he didn’t write in. But he did make me dinner which I loved. I know we’re going through this crisis but he came into some

Money and I thought he would’ve bought me a ring (I’m not picky it doesn’t have to be real) but I was very wrong and because I was expecting this I was a total bitch all day. He invited my mom over for dinner which was nice because I barely see her. But she asks me do y’all want to get married. And I very loudly say ‘well Idk mom Im waiting on him and idk if he gona do it’ he turns around and asks what I said ‘ I said never mind’. I’ve told him I want to marry him. I’ve never been married and I have no kids. He’s been married once and has two kids. I don’t want kids.

I want his promise to marry me and I want the commitment (not that we aren’t committed to each other) but why he married his ex but I’m suppose to be his high school sweet heart, his love of his life but he hasn’t propose or has even talked about it. I look forward walking towards him on my most beautiful day and tellin him in front of god or anyone there that I love him and want to spend my life with him.. he isn’t romantic either.. idk what to do. I honestly feel like leaving him because I deserve to feel that special and I only live once why can’t I have that experience? I already gave up tryna have kids. I don’t want to miss out on everything