Its been over a year since I had my son and in still silently struggling with post partum depression. I dont know who to turn to. I love my son but I just can't handle it. The constant waking up at night the no motivation. Constant irritation and mental break downs. My son is my world but I feel sometimes he would do better without me and my constant mood swings its not towards him but I mentally hate everything. I want to leave my so I love him but hate him he gets to sleep and leave the house whenever. I'm stuck in the house no adult interaction and am left with a very rambunctious and wild 1 year old. I just feel so lost like I lost myself and can't get back out of this dark dark place