hello

hi. i’m gonna be blunt in this message. i apologize if it is triggering to anyone, i don’t want to make anything worse but i feel as if i need to get what i’m feeling off of my chest. i can’t go to my family because i’m already being enough of a burden and i can’t go to my friends because they have real actual problems going on right now. i just feel that i need to share this so it can just be out in the world instead of in my brain, haunting me at all hours. ( jesus christ that was dark. holy shit. my apologies lmao )

i am 19 years old. i have depression and anxiety. and i am very suicidal. i feel as if im holding on to the last branch on the tree of life. i’m ready to end it all. i’m trying to be strong for everyone in my life, for my parents and my amazing siblings and for my grandmother who has always been here for me. i didn’t know life could be this hard at only 19. i’m struggling with crippling anxiety and depression. i can’t keep up with my school work and i’m failing every class i have right now. i’m a disappointment. i should just leave so i can’t be an example of what not to do for the future family generations.

if anyone is still reading at this point, i expect no one is, thank you for reading this and taking the time out of your day to make me feel less alone. just reading all of the posts in this group makes me feel like i can get through anything because all of you beautiful women are getting through them with me. thank you.