I know it’s still early but I’m losing hope for conceiving this month

Anyone else feel the same way? I know I haven’t been trying long but my first 2 were accidents and now I really want one and it feels like it’s taking forever. My youngest is already 7 and I finally got married to my childhood sweetheart and we have been married 9 months now and bought a house. It would be so nice to have a baby now.

I just stopped birth control pills mid-Jan and my cycles have been weird at 33 days and 25 days. This is my first month using OPK and BBT charting and I’m now 8/9 days dpo . I had a neg test this morning. I have been have g symptoms but can’t tell the difference PMS and early pregnancy so that makes it even harder. I hate this 2WW and know I’ll also hate having to wait another 2 weeks after AF comes to try again.