9 weeks postpartum, unwanted&unexpected second pregnancy

So my daughter is 9 weeks old and I'm shocked and terrified after finding out I'm pregnant again.

I have an abortion booked at 6weeks, (they dont do them before that in the uk) so upset about this but it's not fair on my daughter to have another just yet, but I'm still thinking about all the what ifs😭 theres no possible way to keep this pregnancy. Mentally or financially

Could really do with some sort of support. I feel so guilty to the embryo growing and not giving it a chance to grow, (what if it's a boy, what if it's just as beautiful and clever and my daughter,)

But I dont want it. I cant. Not yet! (What if it was meant to be, what if I wont fall pregnant again in a few years?)

😭