Trying not beat myself up to bad...

I had faint lines at first, than started a light flow a week before my period was suppose to come. When i changes earlier it was still pretty light flow but it was brown at this point so i took a Wondfo just because. What's your thoughts still faint line or just obviously negative

This i took only because i felt like i could see a line with a massive dye run but when it dried.....

These are after the dye run went away at the 5mm I'm completely devastated. It's too the point where my husband asks do i think i can anymore kids (4kids later and I'm 38) hopeless & heartbroken