So March 31, 2019 I lost baby #2 at 11 weeks, he/she had stopped developing around 4/5 weeks. It was a very difficult time for me. I went through it pretty much alone. Everyone had their own excuse as to why I shouldn’t have been so upset about the loss of my baby. Maybe it wasn’t the right time, maybe something was wrong with the baby, and so on...but in my heart I knew I had lost a child and that’s what hurt. And I dealt with that pain for so long, I don’t have any friends so I had nobody to open up to about how I felt. And even to this day I still get upset thinking about the loss of my little angel.

But on February 14th of this year I had a very faint positive I thought maybe was just an evaporation line so I didn’t think anything of it. On the 15th I was seen at my emergency room because I thought I had the flu, because my 6 year old had tested positive so I figured I picked it up from him. My doctor was closed because it was Saturday. The hospital done a pregnancy and lab work, test came back negative and so did the blood pregnancy test and all the other labs seemed normal. So they done an X-ray to see if it was my appendix but that was okay too. I felt really really bad, so I knew there was a reason I felt so horrible so I got angry with the hospital staff 🤦🏽‍♀️ Long story short I went ahead and took two pregnancy tests the next day, they were clearly positive. I went to my doctor Monday as soon as they opened and got it confirmed. They sent me to have blood work done and my beta was 59. I asked to have repeat bloodwork every 2 days due to the loss of baby #2 My levels did rise normally, went from 59 to 116 and then up to 174.200

They didn’t feel like I needed anymore bloodwork since it had been rising how it should. I went to my first appointment March 2nd but it was too early for an ultrasound, so they scheduled an ultrasound to be done at the hospital. They did labs and everything came back normal, my beta was 5,235

I went on to have an ultrasound on March 16th baby was measuring one day behind @ 7+2 with a heartbeat of 156bpm

I have another ultrasound April 8th for another dating scan because I decided to switch doctors and they want to do their own tests. I’ll be 10 weeks + 6 days when I go in for my ultrasound and I really can’t wait 🥰

The morning sickness has faded away but I still have waves of nausea throughout the day, and my boobs are still very very sore and tender, it even hurts to face towards the shower. I’m constantly snacking like I’m starving (healthy snacks of course) I’m getting so anxious to see my little rainbow baby next week 😍

If you’ve gone through a loss DONT GIVE UP! I’m not going to sugar coat anything because loosing something you were creating at one point, that hurts deep down. You’ve still got this, and you’ve got an angel watching over you to get you through it 👼🏻

My announcement to my boyfriend

“Every good and perfect gift from above”

(I ran out of white sticker letters so I had to compromise)

10 weeks today 🥰🤰🏽👼🏻🌈

Due October 30, 2020