a rant bc idk

so the father of my child denies his kid (i’m only 15 weeks so). but let me tell y’all why!!!

so let’s go back to october- december (we had been on and off since august 2018) we were mainly just messing around and trying to figure out our relationship but we both recently started new jobs so we agreed let’s just keep things casual until we’re settled in our jobs (we both had shitty jobs before and these new ones are way better) so come beginning of january i tell him he’s not what i want anymore i feel like we’re growing in 2 separate directions. so we went our separate ways fast forward a few weeks i found out i was pregnant. i told him he wanted me to get an abortion i refused. a few days after that he told me some other girl was pregnant but she didn’t want nothing to do w him and he hadn’t talked to him since when she found out, but that he was giving her space till april/ may (she’s due in may) because he wanted to be apart of his kids life.

continuing on he changed his mind and wanted to be there for our kid he said he can’t choose one over the other and i agreed so we started working things out. one night he was staying over my house and someone was calling him for maybe 10 minutes straight just back to back calling. so later of course i ask who was that and he said it’s his ex to be honest (were gonna call her s). and i said why is s calling you? if you are with me that should be known to everyone. and he was like i know i’m trying you saw you were with my brothers earlier and everything is fine. (of course i know brothers lie for each other and stuff and will have secrets)

but things weren’t sitting with me well so i kick him out. i end up messaging s and come to find out they’re in a full blown relationship. and he was planning on buying a house with her in may. all while planning on getting an apartment with me by the end of may. really wondering how he was gonna play that out. so basically he told a/ his family that i’m not pregnant and i’m making it up that they can ask his brothers they saw me i don’t have a bump. but at the time i was only around 13.5 weeks with my first so of course i’m not going to have a bump!! and i sent a pic of my ultrasound and then it was the baby isn’t his. and i did tell him it wasn’t his because he wouldn’t get out my car and he was getting aggressive and i wanted him out. later on we talked about it and he apologized for acting that way i apologized for saying that. we agreed that he knew it was his and we moved on. (he’s the only person i’ve been with since jan of 2019 so there’s no doubt in my mind that it’s his) and so now he’s told everyone (his family/ s/ went as far to message my mom) that he’s not taking care of it that i sleep around and that i’m a liar and i’m dirty. when in reality that’s him. cause i caught him having sex in the back of a car so he can’t tell me he doesn’t. also he’d only known s for a month before she got pregnant she miscarried and he got her pregnant again purposefully. like i don’t understand why he was still having sex with me knowing we weren’t using protection (i know i was wrong too but i thought me and him were going to build something and that this year would be our year.)

just a rant because it’s seriously been bothering me! thanks for reading