Does anyone deal with rage? Like as they’re frustrated or angry it just comes & you try to push it down but the tension just builds quickly & then it explodes. I want to destroy everything, break shit(I don’t break anything though) , pull my hair out, scream,cry, anything to let the tension out.

I’ve fallen into a bad habit from my childhood where I dig my nails into my legs & claw up as hard as I can. Whip my legs with a charger cord. Anything.

Idk how to cope. It’s extremely difficult to stop it once it starts to build which is immediately after I feel frustration or anger.

I just need help.

My therapist told me to journal.

It doesn’t help I just ended up getting so frustrated I stabbed the paper with the pen.

Anyone have any advice.

The rage is new to me. Within the last 6 months & my husband cheated on me emotionally with another woman 3 times within the last 5 months.

Yes we’ve talked, we have therapy individually & together.

I’m dying. I feel crazy. I hate this